Coming Home to Me!

For the last 7 months I have been on an all time low in creativity. In fact I’ve not been doing anything that requires a lot of mental input. It’s not because I’m lazy (although I can be sometimes), it’s because I have burnt out. My brain doesn’t want to be disturbed until it’s ready and I’m not forcing it. I’ve however been looking for new challenges for it. I took a job I’ve never done but I’m bored by it already. It isn’t challenging enough (I have issues, right? I know!) I just need something new. So anyway, sometime in April, when I decided to channel my creativity into another form other than that which I am used to, I came across photography. I don’t really know how the idea came up but all I know is I liked the process of looking out for interesting bits and taking pictures of them on my phone, playing with the different camera views and editing them after. I feel my creative mojo coming home to me, slowly, but it is coming to me, the joy too, and it’s amazing. My brain is preparing for amazing things 😃 The journey to rediscovering myself continues 😊

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Three of my most recent ones. Usually take them when I’m waiting for the bus

You Don’t Have To (A Promise To My Love)

I will worry for you, so you don’t have to
I will be strong for you, so you don’t have to
I will plan for you, so you don’t have to
And I will think for you, so you don’t have to. 



It’s a promise I make in preparation for you, not to make you less of a human but to make you forget the trivial and focus on your greatness.

One I make in preparation for the uncertain future we have ahead of us. Not to make you forever dependent on me but for you to learn to do this for others too. It is the best way to show someone that you truly love them.

It’s a promise in preparation for you as the empathetic person I see you becoming. I’m not making you seem weak in front of your peers but I have learnt that the best way to really understand people is by being empathetic as you listen to their story.

It’s a promise I make in preparation for you as a leader everywhere you go. I’ve realised forcing your will on others is wrong but being with those you lead on that journey they are making the same way I am leading you on yours isn’t.

It’s a promise I make to you in preparation for the day I am not with you because I want you to watch me worry, plan, think and be strong for you. Take my example with you to the next person you meet and change their lives the way I have changed yours. I wish for you to hold their hand and tell them “I got you” because it is what I will constantly tell you. To show them a love that others constantly dream of because you know what love can do and how far it can take you.

That way, I am sure the chain will grow and we’ll have a better world for generations to come.