Every year, on my birthday, I write a little letter to myself. It’s like a recap for the year I’ve had and a reflection on how far I’ve come in life. Before I was 25, I used to write it in my diary, then I started this blog, and well…
26 was a good year to me. By good I mean I made so many strides personally. Most of them not tangible but not everything should be seen anyway. I started the year on an all time low, slipping back into depression and hating where I was
(of course I smiled for the camera) but I wasn’t checking in mentally and emotionally. Then one day after a harsh conversation with my mum, I made a vision board. The main things on it were
- To make friends because I was lonely and basically had no social life
- Have a better social life. One with less alcohol abuse and more interaction with people on a platonic basis
- Travel at least once in the year
- The biggest one of all, was to get out of my comfort zone. That included one of the hardest things I’ve had to do. Go out alone on a night out or day activity where I’m sure I know no one and enjoy it without the Dutch courage from alcohol. Meaning it was all cocktails and no straight whiskey on ice, my favourite (that chaser life isn’t for me)
I am happy to say I got to fulfill all of them! All and more than I bargained for. I discovered new places in London, I went to Carnival on both days and even left with a few numbers (never called any of them though but it’s a milestone, I count it! 😛) I got some girl friends and I now don’t have to have to go everywhere alone 💃🏾
I also found out what I want to do with my career, after a 3 year hiatus! I cannot explain the joy in my parents’ voices when I told them I had decided to go back to school. A rest is all I needed to figure myself out. I was exhausted and now I’m excited to study something new. Before I didn’t care much about it.
One overall thing I learnt though, is that you need to ask to get anything that requires someone else’s input. It doesn’t hurt to ask. The most you can get is a ‘no’ but that shouldn’t stop you from asking someone else. I found out when I was looking for references for my university application. Having to get what you need through emails is one of the hardest things to do. From writing the perfect one, to the wait for the reply, it’s all gruesome but I did it.
27 in a few minutes, I feel amazing. I see bigger things happening for me this year.
To more years, friendships and eating life like a true baby girl 🥂